xinyi's blog

What's the meaning of feeling lost? If you have no idea, take me as an example. Man, i have no idea what i have become? What is this disorientation? Where is the me who was so self-motivated and believed that i can achieve what i want as long as i want it. This year has been an emotional turmoil. I guess, it's only human when faced with one setback after another, without having breaks. It's undeniably tiring, but i bet few of you know. I am so sick of life. It really sucks to have put in this much effort but is still average or worst, below average. People are always asking why i aim so high, why don't i just be contented with what i have, and i can be happier in life. Easier said then done. Put yourself into my shoes, consider what i have been through. For a person who has been through sweet, who has achieved it high, a sky-diving plunge is especially painful. You just don't know.

EOY is tomorrow. Chinese paper can only minus 27 marks, which i think is...